im tired. of trying. caring. & pretending im alright. actually im perfectly fine. im over HIS lame. perfectly & succeedingly getting over him, GOT over him ! So proud to say. Its funny, as im getting over HIS, he comes back & takes me bak. Im jealous of stupid asss elf looking bitch. Whom wich he texts daily, almost postive they call each other babe. ME and him been talking for going on 2 years and the most i can get out of him is he wants to hook up. & thats when it finally hit mee, ill never bee good enough for him, there always be that other girl better than mee. its always been like that and it’ll stay like that. he’s never as it seems never, never been committed. Not to me any way. but after so many fail attempts of making him change to hook up to relationships, youu learn it will not change.. so youu give up. I guess when that sayin once youu stop caring is when they start noticing comes to affect here. Its just not for for oonce i stop caring he wants to be there! Hmm, noo go back to youur elf hunny (:

Never have i ever been the jealous type but when it comes to him, i want no one touching lookin or talking to him,& see we both talk to all kinds of ppl but never has to told me not too. our relationship is not like that. Maybe his & elf’s but not mine and his. UNFORTUNATLY. so as from now till for ever. nothing else matter besides FRIENDS, FAMILY, FUN & most of all my HAPPINESS. & if some onee jusst decidess to come across & make their way into my lifee then, might as well let it happen. y o l o <$

i’ve decided im changing everything bout mee next year! from style, clothes hair, personaltiy. EVERYTHING will be new & improved & changed! (: out with the old & in with the new! bye bye old mee, Heloooooo Gabby (((:

awwwh, your welcome. ive been there only i didnt have any one to tel mee to talk tohim soo, he’s theee one that got away D; but youur welccome ((:

i’m tired of spending hours & hours reading poems stating thre same basic things.

i love youu soo muchh.. i look in youur eyes & see my future.

i love youu.. you maint not have been my first but i can be my last.

Love is express. BY Words By Actions By Sight.

Love is a lie.

love is a game.

Love is as even tupac said it - complicated.

Nowadays, you can’t find reaal love ; you can find lust.. a wholee ,lotta lust.

Its a matter of being satified. Being seduced to matter of enjoyment & pleasure. 

there is a level of insanity

where I sit and wonder candidly

about the nature of man

and what can be

and do you want to hear

of the visions I see

a nicer world

where you

and me

can revel together

in this insanity

called love

I’ve been sick for almost twoo weeks. It completely SUCKS. Constantly blowing my noise, coughing for like an hour straight & missing out on thee only thing I care about the most; b a s k e t b a l l <3 .. 

I’ve even gotten to the point to where i miss school, i’ve written daily, draw a couple of pictures but still i have this god awful empty lonely feeling.. 

I miss having some onee to hold. Some onee to call minee. Somee onee to think abouut all thee time, that will never leave my mindd. 

To call mee theirs, to get butterflies when ever we see each other. The onee they always think abouut. 

Sick, Lonely & Above all.. l i f e s e s s 

you have a heart. it beats; it feels emotions; & of all loves.

you have a brain.  it makes choices; it regrets; & of all it thinks.

So, when you have a brain & heart, they work together. if you make a wrong decision you feel the guilt. So when your heart & brain get together,  they make plans like youu falling in love. Well youu think your in love, then when your all out of love youur hurt, and you regret thinking you fell in love.

when all love is dead and gone; it feels as if youur heart will stop beating & your brain will stop thinking.